What are you looking for?
Will it get better? Or is this my life now?
11 months ago · · Stressed out,
Is this what adulthood is? Is this the reality of life? Is this what living is supposed to feel like? Then I don't want it anymore.
I just keep falling deeper and don't know when this is going to stop. I have no energy left and it's just so exhausting to even leave the bed in the morning to go to work or socialize in any way.
I Don't feel real and just absolutely empty, Lonely.. I have no one to talk to and not even my job excites me anymore, it's just draining to deal with people over the day.
I'm ashamed, that I'm not even capable to live a good and normal life and that I can't take care of my mental health like I should need to, instead I hurt myself just to feel alive and I can't even stop now. As if the blood proves me that I'm still human...
My family is slowly falling apart while we still do as if nothing is happening and we're happy, I also can't run away because I have nowhere to go...