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1 month ago · · Stress · Explicit
I really don't know at some points about what I feel towards my parents, sometimes its hatred sometimes its frustration and then there are those rare happy moments where I feel at peace making my parents laugh.
I feel like we live in such a toxic household, where we are expected to be things we are, not and we will never be, It is almost suffocating to a point I feel so lost.
I feel like I get identity crisis sometimes because of switching myself up in front of them. But I do not see any solution to this, I feel like day by day I run out of patience to feed onto their bullshit. Yes they're my parents they've provided me with everything till date, And if this is all their is worth then I just can pay them back once I earn that much. And I guess that is what I want to grow up to be, but it is so suffocating. It affects the relationship I have with other people around me, and this feeling of being scared of even trying to express what you feel in front your parents makes me sick to my stomach. I thought growing up will make me understand "the importance of my parents" but I swear to god. It just gets worse day by day.
I don't want to live in a house where I'm judged for every little thing I do, and I get interrupted for every thing I don't do.
2 years more s.
you can do it. Just don't ever forget who you are.