You write

To be outstanding and you hypnotize and then the clock ticks and days go by. The week drags on. Life becomes living for this with so little in between the waiting. I have so little of you. Nothing I say matters. Nothing changes anything.

I’m WJD and I have nothing to hide. But it’s wise to be discreet. I’ll take nothing less than an honest conversation directly from the intended person. She knows who she is and she will let me know when she is really willing to offer that. She will be welcomed warmly. I can’t say I will be perfectly composed or even living in the same state, maybe dead of old age by the time she is willing. But I will be open.