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I don’t want to talk to anyone
1 month ago · · frustration · Explicit
I’m miserable, so I get told “talk to someone”. I talk to someone, they tell me to stop whining. And then my brain goes “that sucked, I will keep you safe and not let that happen again, so now you shouldn’t talk to anyone else”. Repeat.
Why tf do you guys say, talk to someone, speak to someone? I’m already beating myself up, what does it help to have someone else beat me up too?
I know I’m a loser, I know. I’m the lowest scumbag. Other people have valid problems, my problems are all made by myself. I had every opportunity and squandered it.
Of course nothing good will come of it if I talk to someone. It’s inevitable they will think “this guy is beyond help”. I will stay safe. I won’t talk to anyone. I will stay safe even if it rots me and makes me miserable. I will stay in my own little toxic cocoon. And I will only come out to let everyone on Novni know how much of a dumbfuck I am.