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This is the second post where I'm venting about feeling sad because of my birthday. I did this last year too.
I'm turning 16 in a few weeks. That's supposed to be a big deal but thinking about it just makes me sad. Birthdays are supposed to be days where everyone you love shows you how much THEY love YOU. I don't feel like I have anyone to show me any love. All the "love" I get on my bday just feels performative because I don't get it on any other day. It's just for show. My parents don't pay attention to me. I don't have real friends. I have no family that lives nearby. I don't know of anything fun or affordable to do either. I also don't have anything to wear. I was looking at sweet 16 pinterest boards and all the girls looked so cute. I don't. My hair is ugly and my face is ugly and I don't have anything pretty to wear to distract from that. I also don't like having my picture taken. For my last birthday I had a black and white sweater on and my mom took pictures of me even though I told her not to. I don't wear that sweater anymore because it just reminds me of those ugly pictures. I hate them.
My friend's 16th bday is also this week. Her parents are making it a big deal. She's having a ton of people over too. We're going to an expensive fancy dinner (we have to pay for ourselves so I'll probably just be eating a cup of ice 🙃), riding in a limo and doing a photoshoot. I do NOT want to be in those pictures at all. It'll just make me feel Insecure the whole time. Im so tired of being the ugliest one in every picture I'm in. Everyone is supposed to dress up nicely because it's a semi formal event. I. Don't. Have. Anything. To. Wear. Plus, I feel even worse when I dress up nicely and still look like shit (my homecoming pictures from October make me want to cry).
If my mom takes more pictures of me this year, I might accidentally scream at her.
I wish I had at least one person to make me feel special.
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Why don't you ask a friend if you can borrow an outfit for her birthday (or yours) as you'd love to come but have nothing to wear and your parents can't buy anything?
I'd hate that too if it was all just for show, it'd make me feel down so I somewhat understand ❤️.
Maybe you're not as pretty, maybe it's got more to do with money tho as money buys nice clothes, hair products, makeup etc. Don't be too hard on yourself and earn money when you can. You should tell your mum to respect your wishes with pictures etc on your birthday. I'd also tell you to find friends in a similar financial situation as you as otherwise the difference is always going to be in your face. ❤️
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