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The biggest challenge in my life so far and what I learned from it
1 year ago · 4 · angel, +6 · Explicit
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The biggest challenge in my life was watching my soulmate die in front of me… this beats all the sexual assaults in my life, and facing these individuals and those family members who doubted me and shamed me..: watching my soulmate get into a car crash was the worst day of my life, and it’s been 7 years now… the second he left the boat landing I knew it in the pit of my stomach… at this time of my life I quit drinking. His phone was stolen minutes prior… he was angry and worried I couldn’t find him since his phone was stolen… poor thing, at least I got to see him smile through his being upset…. Within 30 secs, he went from 0… to 90 mph and faster… on a two-lane one-way road… I swear I saw his car turn around back to the gas station to find a camera with who stole his phone…. But my heart and brain tried to trick me because he didn’t turn around…. he attempted to avoid hitting another car or another person and crashed into a tree…. His body landed in the middle of 1 tree with a split of 2 trees from the base… face down…. And his car was split evenly in half… the back half was in the front, and the front side of the vehicle was in the back… horrible sight.. for over 5 mins, I was looking at his body, telling myself as a defensive mechanism it isn’t him I saw him turn around…. We got to our friends house and opened a beer. Everybody was like yeah, something isn’t right since I never drank anymore… we all went there and asked the cops since they wouldn’t let us closer. Still, details of his car since we knew specifically why made him different, and it was indeed him… during this time, I watched him being put in the body bag and into the ambulance…. Later his best friends went to his parents house to tell them the news since they lived across the street…. The 2 screams from his mothers voice will forever haunt me, and I feel so much guilt I shouldn’t have, even though not a lot of people knew he & I were together. His parents did… people always judged me and didn’t believe me. Still, I learned to realize as the following day, I was picking up all of his belongings from the crash, the loving support and comfort from our friends, and his family that I didn’t need other people’s approval for shit how I felt…. They all knew for those who mattered to him and me… I was so young when this happened, and it’ll forever remain in my heart. I was fortunate to experience my soulmate in this lifetime, which many folks never get to experience and keeping my glass half complete truly and then half empty can be challenging at times… I want to say I’ve found the light to make me a better person. Still, it’s hard to understand the most difficult things in ice build us into the people we were meant to be… even when you think you’ve lapsed from something good, that feeling won’t last forever, even when it feels like an eternity. There’s a saying that everything happens for a reason, good and bad yes, to an extent, there’s not always a reason why it happened, but you can alter the good or bad into your own reflection of life… remember you’re in control of your own perception so please don’t make things complicated or blame yourself. Blaming yourself and others does nothing but harm yourself at the end of the day in any given situation we think we cannot rebuild from… please choose yourself and your growth for peace of mind and provide peace to others by forgiving those you do not wish to forgive to help heal your scars and wounds… thank you guardians … one take away I have my forever guardian I never have to overthink or second guess is looking out for me… remember even if you think there is nobody there is somebody. Just because the physical body is gone doesn’t mean anything; the soul never dies; it transforms!
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This is both heartbreaking and beautiful. Inspiring. I'm going to print this out to remind myself. Thank you so much, and I wish you all the best in turning this awful thing into something that leads to a complete life. <3
ReplySad and beautiful xxx
Replyi also lost my bf 2 yr ago , you stated everything i cant express beautifully
ReplyI'm sorry. That is horrible. I couldn't even imagine what that was like. <3
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