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Whenever I feel upset, I eat a slice of cake. It’s my guilty indulgence, the type of indulgence that attaches to you like a tick attaches to a dog.
There was a point where I tried to stop eating the cake, I tried sugar-free, low-calorie, everything under the sun, but it just wasn’t the same.
Nothing can perfectly imitate the fluffy vanilla frosting that blankets the spongy rich goodness underneath. The sight of my fork digging through the masterfully crafted treat is unmatched, so I stopped trying to hold out.
My frustration fuse that leads me to crave cake has grown shorter and shorter, a problem that I don’t care to address until it blows up in my face.
Sometimes while I eat I secretly hope that someone will catch me. Being caught eating cake is a lot easier than telling someone you’re eating cake. I left traces of frosting on my lip once, hoping someone would look deep enough to notice.
I’ve found that no matter how much frosting or crumbs I leave on my face, nobody really seems to notice. So quietly, I continue my guilty indulgence.
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Hey I'm sorry you're going through this. I think you summed up why eating disorders exist (btw I have one bad). Sometimes it's the only thing that feels good. And when nobody notices/cares it can snowball into a big problem.
I'm not gonna give you the standard "don't do what I did" bc I'm still doing it. But if you can, try to find different ways to cope. Lately I've been binge watching tv, slightly better than binging on cake. In any case, the problem is we don't have anyone who cares to ask us what's wrong. I hope that gets fixed soon.
ReplyAs someone who’s been there and I’ve already lost over 50 lbs combating my eating disorder for years,
This is deeply rooted in your unconscious. Remember your conscious mind is one thing, but your unconscious mind is far more influential over your actions.
My suggestion: write why is it that you do these things. Don’t say “idk” because the point of this is to understand exactly what’s going on.
Practice mindfulness and being in the moment. Be more aware of your emotions.
Ask yourself a list of questions. “Why do I feel guilty when…”, “Why do I feel embarrassed when…”, “What happened that made me feel this way” etc.
And write it down. Take your time and be patient with yourself.
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