Have you ever felt lonely and lost? Need Tips and Advice

My thoughts are all over the place. If I were to ask how I'm feeling now. I would honestly say that I am at a peak loneliness. I never imagined that a day in my life would come that I would acknowledge that I need emotional support. When I was younger, I lost my mum from an illness and as my friends back then did not know how to comfort me through the grief, they all left me. I was alone throughout my teenage years. But that didn't bother me much as I found peace in computer gaming.

Not so much though when you're now a young adult. I went to University when I was 19 and finished the same four years later. I graduated last year, and I am now 23. Throughout Uni, I have only made about five friends, sadly, life after Uni pulled us away from each other and now we are on our separate paths in life. The closest friend I had in Uni was supposed to go to Law School with me but decided to just work as he had enough of studying legal concepts. I was left alone.

Law School is a scary world. I honestly wouldn't have continued if not for this lifelong dream I had of becoming someone like my dad. The thing is, when my dad was in law school, he was surrounded by family despite the financial challenges he had back then. In my case, although we still have financial challenges, we can manage but I am not surrounded by anyone. Not even family man... I go to school, meet people there, and they're all about making connections for better opportunities in the future. With that being said, they are not there to connect emotionally to people.

I am truly lost my dudes. I don't know where to go to fill my emotional needs. A girlfriend would be nice, but the first and the last one I had cheated on me four years ago, and after that I don't have any idea of how dating works now. And I believe it would be better to enter into a relationship when you can give that person what she deserves rather than using her presence for my benefit alone. So far, I am thinking of doing volunteering works but I don't know how to start, nonetheless I am willing to try and am taking my first steps in doing so.

I know a lot of people may be younger or older than me who might see this post, but I just wanna ask, when you were my age, or was there ever a time that you felt lonely? How did you deal with it? I was alone throughout my teenage years but I did not feel the loneliness. But now that I am a young adult, it hits me so much that I could imagine. And from loneliness there comes fear, and from fear there comes anxiety. An anxiety so severe that I see its physical manifestations.

If you are reading this and have felt the same way or still going through the same thing, to be honest, I don't know how you made it, how strong you must have been to go through a lot of things by yourself. Was it your choice? For me it wasn't really my choice but somehow my circumstances in life led me to this lonely road. I need help but I don't see anyone. How did you deal with this? I would be really grateful if you share your experiences or insights with me. I would truly appreciate it.