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I'm lying on the bed, thinking about her
About how I miss her, I love her so much
She means everything to me, my life is her
But she's been miserable lately
She's depressed, well her life sucks
She's trying to fake a smile, but she can't
.
She cries everyday, in the bathroom
She's happy outside, but struggles inside
She's going through a lot, that she can't handle
She's fed up of her own existence
Well, I can't blame her, it's not her fault
She's suffering, she doesn't deserve this
.
I call her, she picks it up, her voice sounds down
I ask her what's wrong and she ends the call
I'm worried, concerned for her state
I text her, "Baby, are you okay?"
I get a reply, after a minute
She asks, "Will you cry if I die?"
.
I get so scared, she's so impulsive
She does what she wants, without a second thought
I called her, again and again, but she doesn't pick it up
I reply "Don't do anything stupid", she texts back, "I love you"
I freaked out, I went on calling and texting her
But no response, I started crying without wanting to
.
I stormed out of the house, running on the streets
I almost got hit, fell down, got back up
I kept racing, people were yelling
I didn't care, all that mattered was she
I didn't look back, until I reached her place
I knocked the door, but she didn't respond
.
I opened the door, it wasn't locked
I went inside, yelling her name so loud
I was wet, covered in the tears I shed
I was bleeding, from my hand and head
I searched her house, panicking like hell
Then I found her, lying on the floor
.
She lay there, motionless, covered in blood
A knife in a hand, other hand cut open
I broke down, looking at what she had done
I took her into my arms, crying for her to wake up
She doesn't move an inch, my tears won't stop
My hands shaking, I call the ambulance
.
After a while, I don't know how long
I lost track of time, she's taken out on a stretcher
I went with her, till the hospital, crying hard, all along
She was in the ICU, I was outside, horror struck
I could see the doctors restlessly trying to save her
I could hear the monitor beeping, she was gasping for breath
.
Minutes passing, her heartrate kept going low
My mind was numb, I wasn't ready to lose her
She meant everything to me, she was my life
What will I do without her in my life?
I couldn't think straight, I saw a doctor come out
He shook his head looking at me, then he walked away
.
It was all my fault. I could've stopped all this
If only I didn't fall on the road, I could've reached on time
I should've taken better care of her,
Her laughing image is flashing in my mind
I fall to the ground, her memories are all that's left
I sob uncontrollably, just smile at me once
.
Is that it? Is that all she loved me?
Leaving me in this state, doesn't she feel guilty?
"I love you" were her last words to me
Her corpse is the last of her that I see
Her presence is all I ask for, is that much?
I loved her more than my life, but now she's gone...
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