What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
If you are in crisis and need immediate help, please call 1-800-273-8255 (NSPL) or text HOME to 741741 (Crisis Text Line). More resources.
I was a 20 yo pregnant. I found out with my boyfriend and we were shock. We decided to do the termination. It is a must, not like i have a choice. I am still at uni and we cant support the baby financially as well if we keep it.
All the morning sickness and couldnt focus in class made me stress. I feel like i am a disappointment in my family. I cried a lot because i couldnt handle the reality. I had to lie to everyone that im just sick.
Fortunately, my boyfriend is a good person. He takes full responsibility on any choices that i make. He even wants to pay everything, even tho i dont want to.
When i break down, i just wanna end my life. It feels really hard to move on to another day. I know what suicide will impact my family and friends, but they will move on, right? My bf calls me everyday, telling me that if i kill myself, he wouldnt forgive himself and would do the same. He wants me to accept all his calls and reply his texts, so he knows where i am and i am alive. He would panic if i dont reply within 2 hours.
I am lucky. I have someone who actually talks to me and listen to me. Someone who wouldnt complain and just hug me when i cry.
I had no idea how depression and stress can make you feel, until i felt it. When i see people suicide, i would say "that person doesnt think about his family and friends". It is actually not that easy. It never will be easy. Calling the suicide hotline might help, never tried it tho. But, talking to someone helps. If someone out there needs someone to talk, call them. Maybe friends or family are scary, they might judge you. But if you talk to strangers, you def let all out.
If you see a comment that is unsupportive or unfriendly, please report it using the flag button.
More Posts
-
My horrible childhood
I just have to let this out. I never told anyone about this. Not even my closest friends. I'm 17 now but I had a horrible childhood. I'm the only girl with 5 br...
-
Struggle to Hope
Since October, my husband and I have had a truly tough time. He lost a parent too soon. We lost a pregnancy that I'd been hoping for for about 2 years. To to...
What you are going through is really hard. You weren't ready to be parent, that's ok.. I just want you to know that hormones could be playing a big part in all of this. Give yourself time to heal. Forgive yourself. Try to get out and do something that will help you smile.
ReplyWell said, you and I- we should start up an advice business. Such wise words man!
ReplyLol, maybe we should 😜
ReplyThanks :) Im actually pretty good at distracting myself. I usually hangout with my friends or just stay at home watching and doing my assignments.It is hard to forgive myself, as what i did was a sin. However, its already happened and im hoping that i can move on from it.
ReplyMake sure you give him a breather even just for one day- show him the best of you and make him feel loved and treasured.One day, you will start your family and you will be ready. As your feelings of disappointment- its your choice so you accept the lane you chose. People in this world will always judge you- don't fret.Don't let him go and be careful from now on!
ReplyThanks Elle :) after what i've been through, i try to do small things for him, like making him lunch and snacks before he goes to work to pay him back for taking care of me.It is really hard to choose whether you wanna be yourself and follow your heart, but the world just against it. But yea i get what u meant, its just that was the first time i've been through something big and it sure is making me stronger now.
Reply