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Hopelessness is such a draining feeling. It takes everything from you. Especially when you're an empath or to be politically correct, a highly sensitive person. I love the WAY overused expression "What doesn't kill you just makes you stronger." I used to believe that when I was younger. It was a hopeful expression. It was like every time I am across a huge monster in my path called life, I knew it was for a reason, to make me stronger.
That is wholeheartedly, unequivocally untrue for everyone. Just to repeat...that does not apply to every human being on the planet or who ever was. This expression is much more real and true "Some people are just born with tragedy in their blood." I long ago passed the stage where my pain "made me stronger." The amount of pain and suffering that the universe has thrown in my face has completely demolished me. The strength has dissipated at this point. There is only so much that ONE person can handle. As Buddha said "Life is Suffering" and I always agreed with that, but the hand I was dealt isn't "suffering"...it is painful sadistic suffering.
There is no "up" from here. There is no getting back up and crawling out of this hole like so many times before. Life has knocked me down and knocked me down to stay down. Ready?? I have no job, no place to live, no car, no money and I was recently diagnosed with a serious heart condition and other autoimmune issues, and my family has disowned me for reasons that my psychiatrist says have nothing to do with me whatsoever. I am completely and utterly alone amongst the 7 billion people on this planet. So where does that leave a person?? Where is the "up" from here?? I used to be somebody. I used to have a career and my own apartment and lots of people in my life to turn to who cared about me.
Some people are just destined, preordained to be born with tragedy in their blood...I was one of those people...and I'm sure there are more. So the expression that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...think before that verbal diarrhea comes spilling from your mouth next time, because it just might be painful and devastating for some people to hear...it didn't make them stronger...it destroyed them.
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ReplyWalt Disney filled for bankrupcty 7 times before he made it. There is always an 'up' from any situation.
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