I'm changing?

Hey, N. We're trying to see if things will work out between us, even if it only will be official in September, I just want you to know that I'm not having interests on somebody else, no new crushes after first look and contact, nothing. It sounds like I'm saving myself for you. I'm waiting, things like this happen only once, you know. I'm expecting too much, over excited of thinking you'll be my first boyfriend. It's good and at the same time, that's scary. Something that I feared with my heart, now I'm accepting this, why? I don't know what to think, yet.