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Through the Night
6 years ago · 0
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17/08/2017
To whom may read this note in the future, tonight I decided to make journal whenever I have trouble sleeping. It has been recurring for months now, it is devastating really. Soft ballad tune 'Throught the Night by IU' accompanying me while I'm writing this "journal". While it is being a Korean song which I really don't have any single clue bout the meaning it have this melancholic tune which I myself can really relate to. There is this great thing that I find about songs which sang in different language that you can't understand, I can make it as if it is my song; making it as if as the song is expressing whatever it is I felt inside. I never been really good in expressing myself. So having this moment everytime in a while is really soothing. I'm able to gain sense of relieve which I desperately need. I can finally breathe again. Life's been sucks for awhile now. It is true what people says about loneliness, it kills you. Its hard, even thought I'm surrounded by people, by "friends" I still feels lonely. It slowly asphyxiating you, at first you may feel fine and denying that there is something wrong with you but in the end it will catch up to you and hit harder than you can possibly imagine, there are no escapes, it is just can't be helped. The pain can be so unbearable at times, as Hazel like to quote it from her favourite book, an Imperial Affliction "pain demands to be felt." There are so much more of these "feelings" that I wish to be able to express them, maybe one at a time. Whatever it is that I have to face I'm really hoping that I can get it Throught the Night.
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