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I have battled anxiety since I was in 8th grade. It started with I would just get worried that I was going to vomit and I always knew I wasn’t going to but I always thought that maybe I was. I kinda just ignored it at first. Well then it turned into I was waking up in the middle of the night, I would pace because it helped me believe that I wouldn’t get sick if I did that. Slowly but surely, the pacing technique stopped working. My mom would find me on the couch with Disney Channel playing on the tv anywhere between 12am- 6am. Or she would hear the tv upstairs on. Once again as time went on I just ignored it. Time went on and I was missing sleep. My mom asked her friend who makes her own oils if there was anything for it. Next thing I know there is this oil in the mail. How it works is, every time I start to feel anxious I rub it on my wrists and within seconds I am calm. I don’t use it as often as I should, I should put it on like three times throughout the day, instead of waiting till I get anxious. But I don’t. My cousin recently told me she knows all of my little ticks. My hands are constantly moving and I can’t sit still, and she can tell when I am dazed and thinking about it. Believe it or not, I have never noticed any of that. My symptoms are continuing and getting worse as time goes on. I now have bathroom issues because of anxiety, along with morbid thoughts. The morbid thoughts I figured were just my mindset, come to find out it is associated with anxiety. I keep telling my mom this stuff, but all I hear is, “PUT ON YOUR OIL!” I also hear, “why are you anxious right now?” I DON’T KNOW!!! The only thing I know that triggers it is vomiting, any other time I get it I couldn’t tell you and it’s highly annoying. My anxiety used to come maybe once a week. Then it moved to 2-3 times a week.. Now it is EVERY DAY! I am just so sick of it. If anyone knows of anything that has helped them, that would be amazing!
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