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All of this was written in my phone in my notes and I️ write in it everyday .......I️ don’t know how to say any of this or how to start this but.... I️ just want to say that you were my first love of my life, my first kiss, and the person that helped me find who I was. I️ have spent the last 6 months of my life with you and I️ gave it all I️ got. Every second of the day I️ thought about you about what I️ was going to say to you if I️ seen you after school or what you were doing or what you were wearing. I️ loved everything about you. I️ loved how you looked at me with your blue eyes and how I️ could see the love you had for me in them. We talked every day and every night. You were the reason I️ got through hard times and what made me forget about them. I️ really thought we had something great and I️ dreamed of our future together like our prom and wedding and kids together. I️ never told you any of that but I always thought it. I️ told you everything about my life like what I️ did that day and how I️ felt and I️ just loved to talk to you. I️ loved how your lips felt against mine as we kissed for like it felt in the dark after your football games that I️ came to every time you had one at home. When we were back there I️ had no other thought in the world besides you and me. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since we broke up and it hurts me a lot that we may never get back together but if we did I️ would do things different and I️ want us to love harder. I️ was a mistake to let you walk out of my life because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Even tho you broke my heart into so many pieces that I can’t even count I️ still will always love you. I️ tried to move on but I won’t be able to because I️ realized that no one I️ ever date will be like you. No matter how old we get there will always be a place in my life for you. You will probably never read this but I️ just wanted my love for you to be locked away by a four did-gets in my phone. Every time I️ get sad I️ will add on to this so this is going to be a book when I️ am finished. I️ will only be finished when we get back together or I️ move on. Hiding my love for you right now is hard because I️ want you to know how much I️ love you I️ just wish you felt the same. The only way I️ know how to talk to you right now is in anger and last night after righting some of this I️ texted you and figured out that you though I hated you. Hating you would be easier on my heart but I️ don’t know how I️ could do that. My problem is that I️ am always the one that loves too hard. Someone told me that when me and you broke up and they were the reason that I️ stopped crying every second of the day. Today is thanksgiving I️ wanted to post pictures of everyone that I️ am thankful for. About a million pictures of you came up on my phone as searched for people I️ am thankful for. I️ couldn’t post any pictures of anyone one because if I️ did and you weren’t on there that would be a lie. I️ wanted so bad to post you on there but I️ realized that I️ couldn’t be thankful for you because I️ don’t have you. All I️ want is to hug you and kiss you but I can’t....your not mine anymore. It hurts to see you and not be able to talk to you. It hurts that every time I️ see you I️ want to burst into tears, but most of all it hurts that you don’t love me. You told that I️ was the first love of your life. That will always mean something to me that you just don’t understand. As young adults we have to learn to love and figure out what’s important to us. You were what was most important to me in the world. You put me second tho. You didn’t care about what I️ had to say I️ knew that because you never listened to me. You didn’t try like I️ did. I️ wanted what you didn’t have in a guy. For some reason non of that mattered. I️ still loves you with everything I️ had. You costed me so much.
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