Trying to Understand

Where did things go so wrong? When did i become this monster you paint me of? I can't help but to feel hurt inside. I feel like everytime we get to the top of the mountain we slowly begin to slide back down. Do I still make you happy? Do I even still make you smile? How can I possibly know what you're going through when you don't let me in? I just feel like sometimes there is no point for my words. Should i say something to try and make things better? When I do, I feel like it makes things worse because no matter what I try to say your mind is already made up and I can't change it. I just have to wait for you to calm down. But when I say nothing that makes things even worse because you feel like I don't care. In all reality, I think I care too much.. How can I make things right? How can I get you to feel my pain? You paint me of this bad person and that hurts me more then you know. I wish you could see what this does to me. I wish you could feel what this makes me feel like. I know I am not always right, but I know I can't possibly always be wrong too. Help me! Help me understand you..