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Am I a bad person?
5 years ago · · EBD,
Yes, I tend to be easily angered.
Yes, I make excuses.
Yes, I become spiteful and rarely let things go.
This also means I don't let my own self-hatred go.
I hurt others and myself without them understanding why;
my apologies and good times fall on deaf ears and blind eyes.
They don't accept me the moment I make a mistake.
My emotional disorder is always their reason, no matter the severity.
"Special Needs Kid" is the name I hear way too often.
I feel everything they say. I have no filter in my words. My emotions run rampant in this disgusting, bruised and bloody shell I call a body; that I cover in makeup and try to force a smile; but all they see is a retarded kid trying to look normal.
I'm not retarded.
I read on a college level and I excel in my art classes;
but they never see that.
"You'll never make a job out of that"
"You'll live under a bridge"
"None will love you"
I hear it all and feel it all,
and it hurts.