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I have a crush and it makes me feel pathetic
6 years ago · 0
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I've fallen for someone unavailable that I interact with at my gym. Seeing him is really the only thing in my life I look forward to. He's done little things here and there that make me think the attraction is mutual. (Smiles, waves, I catch him looking at me.) As one friend put it after seeing him smile at me, "You're on his radar." He's married. I feel so sad and pathetic crushing on some married guy, but it's the only thing that helps soothe my loneliness.
My days are really long and I dread the weekends. Most of my friends are married. I look at engagement posts on Instagram and cry because that will never be me. I haven't had a relationship is many years. Online dating does nothing but leave me feeling bruised and battered. I think about spending the rest of my days alone in a tiny apartment and I wonder if I'll make it. Thinking about him keeps me from feeling totally alone. I listen to music and imagine he's proposing to me and I cry some more out of shame. I take medication for depression, but I still feel an overwhelming sadness every day when I remind myself I can't and never will have him.
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