I think we all know

Damn well why I'm not healing. Because you wont let me go. Because far too many people are in my life. I did not in any way agree to my broken ass, pain & struggle to be public knowledge. But I guess I'm going to have to figure out how to heal in an unhealthy environment.

Yes I physically cheated on a boyfriend. No I did not physically cheat on my husband. Yes I emotionally had feelings for someone else. No i never cheated on anyone else. Nor will I...ever. I know what to do now. I live a life I always learn from. Yes I allowed a married man to use me. Only because i felt something for him & had a seed of stupid hope that it might be something. He said he didnt love her anymore. So that says to me it's a done deal. Could just be words. I honestly thought i could easily love him. I'm just wanting to be loved & appreciated so badly after so much abuse for so long its ridiculous. He said all the right words. The comfort I'd there. I know just because they dont value me doesn't mean I dont have value. It would just be nice for once in a very long time to feel valued by someone.

And people think other people are cheating even when they dont. Because theyve seen it, because they dont know their value, because they have been hurt before. Because they've lost faith in love. Or they know they really arent in love. It's true, you dont look for love when you are in love. Never did for YEARS with my husband until it fell apart. Never did with the last bf. Totally true. I want that for him. For him to love his life so much hed never dream of it. Would've spoiled the hell out of him.

And dont think for a moment going to great lengths inflicting incorrect karma wont come back on you. That is for sure. Even witches know not to put bad spells on others. Its Gods laws of nature, what you put out you get back. So I choose love. Period.

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