Loving You Until The Dolphin Sings

It was a random thought but once I got serious about it, I turned off my tv so I could really think about it. I didn't want to continue giving myself to dirtbags who knew they had nothing to offer me including security. No matter how many times I acknowledged how important security, stability, and reliability meant to me they continued to try and paint pictures that weren't tangible.

I wanted something special and I know that there's someone out there for me but I don't want him to find me depleted, broken, battered, bruised, and or most importantly - bitter.

I didn't want any part of it...I didn't want to deal with manchildren anymore or boys that had mommy issues that they refused to acknowledge. Another thing, I didn't want to deal with boys who had no ambition and only wanted to coast through life without a plan.

A plan still provides a sense of direction and even if steered off track...it is better to have one than to not have at all. Without any direction, a man stands for nothing. (There's nothing to go back to. There's nothing to reassure you of the successful accomplishments & better yet...less likely to get distracted when there's no plan). I lived that day to day lifestyle with my parents and I refuse to live that way as an adult...that feeling of not having any idea as to how things will get paid for. Or every year having an issue buying the essentials for school because both parents are too prideful to admit that they don't save $$ for things that are important, that they don't nor didn't have any intent of planning anything for the future of their kids.

It shouldn't take me a year to see that you aren't interested in finding a job or making a career for yourself and or interested in going back to school. Pretty much...it shouldn't take me a year to realize that we have nothing in common.

I want my equal...who has the same thirst for life and drive of energy. Who isn't envious of my accomplishments and someone I can show off & be proud of! Someone who comes from a good home & knows what it means to be monogamous & in a serious committed relationship. Not a clingon who can't think for himself and is just solely looking for someone to take care of him as he continues to dip into every get rich quick scheme & or talk with no action.

I know that he's out there...I want us to be special & to pierce each other's souls as we laugh, cry, talk, argue, love, grow etc.

Let me love you until the Dolphins sing

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