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Due to the fact that I'm being stalked, harassed and dealing with others messing with me. I've became paranoid, doubtful, distrustful of everything. I don't know what's going on anymore or why. Not sure who I can turn to for help but it's destroying my life.
I have felt unsafe for a long time now because of what people have been doing towards me and those I care about. I'm starting to believe that I've been sexually abused/raped and fell pregnant forcefully by some sadistic narcissistic-sociopathic- rapist, who's been stalking and abusing me by hiding behind something like a coward. Other people are involved in the abuse too. I'm convinced that something bad has happened towards me and thinking my newborn isn't my husbands.
That's how fucking messed up I am in the head because of what people are doing towards me on purpose. People have been driving me crazy by antagonizing me on purpose and trying to make me look like something I'm not.Nobody cares enough to help, stop whatever abuse is being done towards me and be honest with me.
I feel alone and unprotected by those who I thought would have my back. It seems like nobody's reliable enough to tell me what the truth about what the fuck is going on.
My husband knows of this and thinks I'm crazy because I was with him. He tells me that he wouldn't allow anything to harm me and that I would also know if I was sexually assaulted, but I'm just don't believe it at all nothing horrible happened against my will.
I also don't trust people anymore because of the mind games being played against me.
Don't understand why people are doing this towards me in the first place, but I want to make it stop and put an end to it. I've contemplated suicide by getting a gun shooting a myself because I get no peace whatsoever and I can't do this anymore.
I've been fearing for my safety and I don't know what's going on or where this is coming from in order to do something about it.
It's messed up to even assume I might of been sexually assaulted and raped as these are serious allegations.
I just don't know what to believe anymore.
This is all due to the fact that a group of people have been ganging up on me, hiding behind something and causing me psychological issues, damaging my livelihood and well-being.
I don't know who is fucking messing with me and following me but they won't leave me alone.
It's hard to get get proof of these passive aggressive abusive tactics. I'm worried that I was drugged and sexually assaulted at one point without mine and my husbands full achknowlement. I've been with the same person for 4 years and never cheated once. I was away from my home country at the time and on vacation with my husband who was my boyfriend at the time.
I think these pieces of shit people and this psychotic person is getting others to turn against me by making up stories about me to cover up something that they're doing or did.
I don't know who's doing this to me but I want to make this person and those involved to leave me alone and get the fuck out of my life permanently.
I want these sadistic abusive people to leave me the fuck alone and get the fuck out of my life!
I don't care if I have to use violence at this point to get the message across, what ever I say or do it's twisted against me. People clearly aren't reasonable enough to be civilized and stop causing me harm.
None of these people involved has empathy and cares about me being heavily abused.
I've mentioned this to my partner and plan to do a DNA test because I'm doubtful. I have nothing to fucking hide anyways. This build up fear is from people messing with my life and I feel compelled to check everything now just for peace of mind. My husband knows I wouldn't cheat on him, as I was with him the whole time and I know myself I wouldn't cheat this is why I want to go through with it.
I believe people are protecting someone who's fucking up my life on purpose and trying to control me.
Once I find out the truth, this will definitely determine if I go to Police or not.
I know what I do and don't do.
I can do a lie detector test because I have nothing to hide and lie about but I just want privacy like everyone else.
I STILL DESERVE PRIVACY IN MY LIFE !
I'm sick and tired of people messing with me. Tired of people ruining my life and abusing me. Officially I'm done with people creating fucking messed up stories about me that aren't true. I'm not letting enablers of abuse and the abuser get away with hurting me anymore.
I do not want nothing to do with people I don't know and I want very little to no no contact with others as much as possible.
If I find out I was raped I'm going to fucking lose it and who knows what I do.
I cannot do this anymore and I don't want to.
_-Jas
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