My Unsent Letter

Aunt d aunt c how could you in good conscience do what you did to me. How would you both feel had what was done to me been done to you two? I wanted to tell you aunt d but you already knew part but not all what I went through and how they were and are though I know you'd either said eh whatever or not respond or a generic I'm sorry because we haven't spoken in too long . Then again it might have started a war. I just haven't enjoyed your son prospering getting married while my life went to the toilet and you could've helped prevent it. You never worked as I recall but you enjoyed riding your hubbys car to grandmas smoking all the time. I never knew you too well. Your son was a mixed bag part bully part friend. Two faced. You put t down told her not to be in a documentary Because she was so poor you were ashamed of her. You weren't her boss. You lived off your old man I don't recall you doing anything but then again I never you too well. Idk if we will ever talk again. But i do know I care for you though. You don't know how it feels to be me. You never ask about me. Never. What am I chopped liver. Or brussel sprouts. I didn't deserve to be done this way. You probably have your pre conceived notions about me. You said youdhekp me do something and didn't. That's the first time I realized I can't put dependance in any family member they lie and let you down. I thought I could trust family but you and most everyone else proved they can't be counted on. Last i heard you said you were depressed Because grandma is gone and the house too it's not the same there anymore people died moved etc. Idk how to feel but I still care about you though. What I hate is the family hypocrisy. They do one thing to me then tell me you can't or don't do that kinda stuff....well why TF did you do it to me? What you think I was a sucker. Usually you think you can trust family but almost none of mine are trust worthy they all use you lie bail and run or treat you badly leaving you wondering why you had such a family to begin with. That's mostly all I got to say. I suppose some things are better unsaid. Thing is you don't know half of anything I've been through and not sure you care. So it's exhausting keeping it all in being verbally emotionally abused and more and not being able to tell anybody. Why such an uncaring family I did nothing to no one. At one time I thought I belonged to that part of the family. Guess your all's actions proved I don't even if we are blood related. That's enough

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