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I know what's coming. He doesn't have enough nor does anyone else he knows have anymore. It's not something you run out of and this stupid idiot just don't care. I shouldn't be put in this situation I know he's gonna ask me again because he's so stupid with his and has put me and mom through absolute hell the last 2 weeks all because he simply don't care gets drunk calls us names keeps on mumbling grumbling stomping through the house keeping us awake with no memory of it not even wanting to hear about it leaving the room trying to tell him. Well I warned him 2 weeks ago when he said you live in your world I'll live in mine. I said yeah well see the next fucking time you run out of your drugs. Because who does he come crying to boo hoo hoo when he abuses his anxiety meds illegally bought he's addicted to and you can't run out go cold turkey or you'll go into seizures high blood pressure which is what possibly caused him a mini stroke months ago...but he refuses to change. I get legitimate anxiety meds for anxiety and I know this mf is gonna come like a wimpering dog wanting me to feel sorry for him when he's already went through over two times what I'm prescribed a month that I get for legit anxiety not abuse and party and get drunk on with other drugs like him. I checked today when he was gone ...had a total of 4 left and he can't get anymore for a week. This is absolute bullshit ok. It's not my fault what he does and I'm not obligated to give him my medicine when I don't even have enough for both of us. I wish he'd just GTFO and go somewhere else. I know another drunk is coming next week. This last time I almost crushed his head in with a baseball bat I'm so fucking tiredof his abuse verbal and emotional keeping us up all hours of the night. He's right about one thing he needs to wean off that medicine . He'll say that when he's running low. It so fucking sucks living with this person. Drug addicts and drunks especially manipulative and abusive ones are so so hard to live with i almost beat his skull in. So if I'm triggered further idk what may happen. I can't go to jail for this person but I have no escape either no other family will take me in not even a single night. Despite us taking them in when they were in need. Nor do I have credit or debit for a motel room. Or I'd been there many a night. It's hell living with this man. But when things blow up here I always get the blame even though he provokes me to anger running his mouth or mom too I'm still to blame no matter what I say. Even just talking to mom she blows up and blames me for what he does because she can't stand what he does anymore and I'm the perfect scape goat. So I'm screwed no matter what I do it's unwinnable with them. It's always "you're crazy" " I didn't say nothing you did" " I didn't do anything you started it" ...ok how can I start something just talking in a normal tone then they go through the roof or deny anything for no reason. Oh gosh I'm so tired. I thought he'd change when his Dr cut him off those meds but no he has to get them off the street. That's the problem all he ever did was abuse them for at least near 30 years never taking them right. I mean he got sloppy drunk that's part of my PTSD him yelling like a grizzly bear to mom and me both. I don't know anymore. He's not my obligation or responsibility he never was. But as I said before he's the one who stole off my grandma being tossed out made homeless with mom too that called here help me help me help me!!!!!! At the time I was just trying to establish my own life. Not my fault they couldn't stand on their own. No they weren't happy until they came stole everything I had them once I couldn't help them anymore money wise it was I'm worthless useless lower than a dog a low life I was called. After helping them out of the gutter. So if I ever get ahead in life I doubt I'll ever make contact with him again once I'm able to get my own place again. Not have them take it over. I paid for everything here now mom acts like she owns it. I put up the rent and deposit. They had no money. Now I can't get that deposit back because they stiffed the landlord on so much money he only let it go because he knew we'd turn him in for safety violations. I got royally fucked in life thanks to these people who I with a good heart only tried to help out not intending them to take everything I had worked for not knowing they had huge drug problems despite other family knowing just not telling me. Which is why they won't speak to me today they know they pulled a good one on me pawning them off on me not wanting to help them at all. That's why I've had so many mental breakdowns. Ok I'm human i don't and didn't enjoy being fucked over or being treated like garbage. On top of living with an out of control drunken drugee. Thanks all my family for having my back. Putting a knife 🔪in it that is totally appreciate it😡😠😤
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