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So I'm grateful dad's not a complete ass like yesterday but he still has been in ways. Today we went shopping (more like they did they're the ones who got a stimulus check). So 1st they said "oh you can get you a pair of pants shirt shoes an outfit stuff you need" ok later they the greedy gretchens that they are with their money (keep in mind they don't care what they ask of me including my very last $ and in the past hundreds of thousands dollars I busted my ass for working out) say OH you already got a pair of pants. 🙄While this is true the other day they did but why say that then change your minds? I got 2 cheap shirts and a cheap pair of shoes WHILE MOM GOT A $150 CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh but heaven forbid I get another pair of pants while you all but cigarettes in 2 days what 1 pair of pants cost. Again. It was always ok for me to be free hearted with what money i got taxes stimulus paychecks...buy with you all OH nooooo it's like I'm a second class citizen when it comes to you buying me stuff. But of course they looked and pilfered through cds n dvds but you know a pair of pants you had to change your mind on when you got hundreds in your pocket and bought a half and quarter ounce of weed. But that's totally valid huh? Um appreciative for what I received but you just don't tell me I can get something then change your mind. Memory flashback: a few yrs ago I got my tax refund back. Dad and I go shopping. He throws a CD 2 set in my buggy. I don't sat a stinking word. I buy it. But when he started being abusive I tossed it and it's in the landfill now n he thinks it's just lost. Well you do not treat your family like crap and act like everything's all ok. And earlier because I didn't feel like getting out and I told mom that and he smokes cigs like oxygen he goes AWW FUCK! because they're near out of cigarettes 🙄. It pissed me off but becAuse i hate dealing with for one a scoundrel for a mini Mart clerk he's a short changer and cheat and price gouger. Dads drunk he goes it's ok I can wobble up there I done it before. What a fucked up family I got. If I come into money soon I'm gonna give them the🖕like they did me. Family plus money does not mix with greedy loose handed folks. This in part is why I need a therapist. I don't like how they do me. I was always the good kid I sure didn't deserve none of this my parents conning me out of my savings. My dad would've done burned down anybody's house who did that to him he was about to he got burnedin bad drug deals in the past. It fucking pisses me off ok how fucking petty they are and greedy but will ask for my fucking last dollar. What kind of parent's do that? No wonder all other family abandoned them and tossed them to be my problem being unaware of how they we're. Ok I'm done for now I'm just tired of the bullshit.

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