What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
If you are in crisis and need immediate help, please call 1-800-273-8255 (NSPL) or text TEEN to 839863 (Teen Line). More resources.
I want to be loved romantically. No one loves me platonically, so I seek to be loved romantically. But no one loves me. I have given up. I want to marry. I want a husband who loves me but it’s all just a hopeless dream. I will never marry. No one will ever love me. I’m just existing. I’m too afraid to die, but some day I feel so hopeless that I fear I might actually try. I talked about my future but during those times I do not see me having one. But I know I haven’t given up on living just yet because I haven’t planned it out which means I still have hope for myself. All I have is myself so I have to take care of myself but I am failing miserably. I don’t want to die. I don’t want to live. If only I could return to nothing. But I feel so guilty. Many people don’t want to die but do and I try to go willingly? How could I do that? I wish I didn’t care. I care for people who don’t care for me. I am always just there. Ignored. I always do everything for other but the second I do things for myself I’m selfish? It’s fine. I will continue existing. Maybe I don’t know. I’m afraid I might give in and kill myself. Gosh I actually said it for once. Oh I’m so sorry. If only I did a better job. All you had was me and I failed you. I’m sorry.
Comments have been disabled by the author
More Posts
-
One Rainy Night
It was raining when I thought to take a short break from my work. The clock struck midnight and I decided to go for a tea down the street. I took my jacket and...
-
meal time..
I am called "pig" after I eat the bar full of sugar given to me by my own father, I am called "skinny" by those around me and sometimes eve...