Night thoughts

You're an idiot dad. That wasn't enough what you did this last week. No. You had to go buy weed this time with a box of wine. You can't give drunks up one way or another can you? Even that's made him mean before. Guess you don't want to let the addict part in you rest huh you're destroying your self and brain.

Funny he's talking to me like he has amnesia like nothing ever happened. He don't remember our confrontation him getting up in my face pushing me saying I'll cut your fkn head off looking at me like a psycho in a psych mental ward. I'm still traumatized by it. But we can't talk to him about it until he completely sobers up. They were getting suspicious why my Aunt hadn't called so I secretly unblocked her number so they wouldn't know I did where she ignored me. What's ok for me in her eyes is for her also. She acts like it's ok to treat anybody bad but whines when it happens to her. I can't stand her. And my mom was ignorant giving dad the rest of his pills.

I don't want him coming to me like always going 😭I'm out of my pills with crocodile tears. Shouldve thought of that before you became an uncontrollable do it or die drunk. Would not quit harassing and cussing mom and me. It's been a complete nightmare. And the weed makes him worse later after he's out.

I'm not his pharmacy. What he ate in a week would do me 3 months that's how bad he is BECAUSE I DONT ABUSE THEM I KNOW BETTER. Sigh. Not my fault he don't get them prescribed anymore. That was his fault screwing up at his psychiatrist. I don't care though his problems aren't mine. I think he will be sorry one day.

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