Late night thought ramble

Dad wtf what were you thinking tonight? I mean really. He went overboard. All I can do is say wtf were you thinking!? He mixed a combination of 5 different drugs. I won't name them but that's like really not very smart or safe.

Well I have to do everything of the night close n turn everything off n make sure he doesn't burn the place down being drunk. He's in his recliner passed out , ink pen on the floor he dropped drawing on a writing tablet.

I told mom she's like he shouldn't be mixing that stuff. Yeah no $hit. I know Smh.

We can't control him this us what I mean he's gonna end up destroying himself without stopping or getting help.

What could possibly drive some one to do something like that is he really that depressed? When he's sober he's tolerable. I know once this wears off if he don't sleep thru tonight he'll be aggressive as hell to mom. We can't do nothing with him he won't listen. That was his downfall as a teenager so I heard too stubborn to listen so he quit school n went to work lying about being an adult to work there. Well he's put me through too much in life idk what to think of him . Somebody that did me bodily injury, threatened my life in the past number of months WHAT DO YOU THINK OF SOMEONE LIKE THIS?! IDK I tolerate him its all I can do.

He thinks idk. Yes he's a black sheep so am I because of him ripping family off he got a bad name so I'm assumed bad too plus I got a gossiping aunt. I wish he'd straighten up its just sad. I'm not heartless even though he's been to me a bunch of times saying stuff like YOU FIGURE IT OUT.

His problems became my own when he came back into my life. Oh hey its ok splurge on the meds they'll bail me out. Oh hey I'll get dependant on them party n take their (my) money too hey its a win win situation I got it made! was his past mentality. He literally said "I got it made" laid back high one day.

How can anyone do that to their child knowingly use and take advantage of , sponge off them when they are able bodied to work? He used to be however not anymore.

This is all the s#it I got to live with and in memory. This isn't half of it either.

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