I don't know where to start

I don't know where to start. I had a rough couple of days because I'm stressed out from being social.

Being social ruins my life. There is something weird about people that keep messaging me.

There are several people I just hate now because they messaged me and told me that "not everyone is the same".

I don't know why they said this because they don't know what I think in my own head and what they said made me hate people.

I just hate people now because I didn't even ask them for advice or anything and they just troll me for no reason. They just message me anyway and it makes me cringe.

Please leave me alone. That's all I ask.

I am so proud I'm a loner and that I stick with it because people make me suicidal and homicidal. I'm sorry but it's true.

Another thing is I hate people because they are trolling me a lot and hating.

They try to convince me that I'm not going to go far in life if I'm a loner. They haven't proved that being social is beneficial.

They proved to me that if I was more social than I am that I should kill myself and kill others.

These people are toxic for me and they call me stupid for being myself.

I mean I don't want to hang out with anyone else if they act like this.

No one should hang out with me either because I'm suicidal and homicidal if and when I'm social.

I don't want anyone around anyway and I think people should save themselves from me. I'm too weird apparently. People don't understand the who are weird.

I also think I'm going to be happy without friends and a lover.

I need to warn people to watch out because I'm dangerous.

No human can ever love someone like me because they aren't capable of love anyway.

I mean if I was other people and i saw me then I would love me instantly. But that's me. I'm not other people.

I think I'm deserving, worthy and loveable but I'm also special case. I'm too complex and too difficult.

I'm different and most humans are not ready for someone like me.

I am. But not other people.

People don't understand and they aren't read for those who are different.

I'm sorry but I had to make this post because I'm stressed out and upset from being social and being social is deadly for me.

I'm hated on way too much. I'm bullied and trolled.

I'm made fun of. I hate it and I think being social is for others instead of me.

I'm just venting and people want to message me repeatedly.

I don't want to be social and it makes me upset.

It ruins my life and it makes me want to die.

People don't respect me and they are rude.

They don't care about me and they care about themselves but they blame me for being selfish.

People hate me and tell me to change even because I don't want to be social and people hate on me all over again afterwards. It's not good.

I hate people because they attack me and call me lonely and I'm sick of it.

I hate people okay. Leave me alone. People are stupid because they want to talk to me and be social with me.

There is something wrong with people because they try to persuade and convince me instead of leaving me alone. This I'd why I'm suicidal and want to kill others.

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