My feelings

I'm about to say fuck people in general. No I realize there are good people out there, but well I seemingly just run into almost entirely shitty ones. Mean ones. Unkind uncaring uncompassionate ones. So why the fuck should I care for others if they don't care for me? I honestly try to be a good person and do good to others. Days like this feel like its all in vain . My family are a bunch of shitty unstable mental cases. Some of which deny everything and refuse to seek help despite being a mean drunken sob. AND THRY GOT THE GALL TO SAY IM CRAZY? if I am its because I've endured too much trauma emotional and some physical. Screw the holidays screw people this whole world just sucks. At least those in my immediate family. One gets on a pity pot but in turn if you need them they go🖕. Another don't give a duck about you unless they use and get what they want out of you. one turned their back on me when explicitly told them I and how I was being abused only for them to not care ignore then block me and ACT LIKE IM THE ONE IN THE WRONG on top of laughing in my abusers face knowing full well everything I told them. Excuse me if I feel like taking vengeance in my own hands or having myself committed. BOTH OF THEM NEED HUMBLED SOME HOW.

I have to live with all memories of abuse and I'm isolated at the same time. Yet I'm told to just "forget it let it go" WELL MY FUCKING FEELINGS ARE VALID TOO HOW DARE ANYBODY TRY TO SILENCE ME OR INVALIDATE ME NOBODY GETS ME NOBODY. Until people start treating me better they can eat dog shit and have a day. Let karma serve them what's coming to them. Fuck Thanksgiving. Fuck my shitty aunt. Fuck dad.

A little love/kindness goes a loooooooooong way. But there is none to be found in my family , neighbors, etc. I'm just done with everything everyone everybody I want to quit period. Does anyone genuinely call/ask how I am? No.very seldom.

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