Untitled frustration

So. Yeah its the new year. Oh joy! :) And I I just can't win. Who doesn't love abusive family?

Around a little after 12 the dog comes scratching on my door. Im only trying to help us all mom and I because usually that means he's gotta poop. So I hear mom talking to him mean. Then when I offer to take him she's mean with me basically AGAIN taking her frustrations out on me from dad. I figured he had to poop and he did. Well dad was still passed out from drugs. Ugh. Unfortunately people pulled in outside met me at my door going around our building so doggo goes crazy.

I come in quickly. He barks wakes the asshole drunk up he yells SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!

Afterwards he says something to me I remain silent. He goes FUCK YOU!!!!! FORNO REASON 😠😠😠

I tell mom she sourly goes ignore him . I go I'll throw that fuckin candle at him. Verbal emotional abuse FOR NO REASON WHATSOEVER

oh man he's messing with the wrong person here. I don't know how to handle him but lock my door I feel like hurting him somehow he needs taught a lesson.

Then mom makes a face because our dog woke dad up. He comes to harass her. They fight over of course drugs.

All he does is be aggressive as hell and say fuck you and son of a bitch.

Its like that's all he knows how to say to us in this state. Fights with mom for drugs going

NO! MORE!!!!!

she says GET OUT OF HERE he goes I DON'T HAVE TO.

I so badly for my well being want out of here.

But my aunt and cousin don't care they know his addiction problem. But won't have me for a single night. Im tempted to harm him I mean abuse you can handle only so much of it. Especially with no way out.

Speaking of witch or which that cow my aunt did stop here today while I was trying to nap since I had 0 sleep last night thanks to dad basically she stopped here with ever so special precious (Doug) her mayun

( Mr Doug threw a shoe at me wahhhh but I don't want in middle of your problems but its ok for her to force hers on us sheslike non verbally by her actions😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠)

I want to hit both of them honestly. Because her ex was so so abusive and she'd go boo hoo hoo to us. But to me she goes IM SO SORRY CALL A CRISIS LINE DOWN'T LOOZE YER FAYYYYTH. then later blocks me on FB messenger and my phone number, cuz you know, shes the nicest kindest of human beings. NOT. She wouldn't care if I was lying in a ditch half dead. Yet a shoe is tossed at her and its the end of the world in her way of thinking. Poor poor auntie a shoe is the worst thing ever that could happen to you aww you poor poor thing. Here LET ME TOSS ANOTHER 1 AT YOU HEARTLESS OBNOXIOUS COW👞👟👠👡👢💥🧝‍♀️

she has the IDGAF about anyone but herself attitude like her son. He's very unloving I lived with him for a short time. There was 0 love in that house of his its why his son rebelled and became a criminal he was too mean to him without love. I Jaye my fuckin family. I wish they especially my aunt who blocked my number for no reason and turned me away like im vermin knew how it felt to be done the same way. She basically cries to try get pity out if others. Like the time she's like "my floors are dirty wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhb😭". Then says "we all have our days" yeah?! WHAT ABOUT WHEN I HAD MY DAYS BEATEN MY DAS WITH NOWHERE ELSE TO TIRN LIKE SHE DID TO US!? MY FEELINGS ARE VALID ITS NOT RIGHT HER CLAIM TO BE A CHRISTIAN AND DO ME THIS WAY. what about the "do unto others as you'd have them do unto you" you know golden rule? Im not last week's left over dinner. IM HUMAN 😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠

im just sick of being treated like shit ok. Im starting to consider suicide now because everyone forsakes me and I got noway out on top of suffering because of a psychotic drunk drug addict.

Im sorry im his biological child. Is rather have my name changed I bstd both sides they both suck neither side cares for me other than 1 other aunt and uncle . Dad he needs gone from my life before I make out a suicide letter. Im just done. Hell of a way to start 2023. I don't know what to do anymore 😭😣😔how I miss happiness and peace 💔

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