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Ok Im not a Dr. I hate being put in the position to determine whether somebody lives or dies. Because somebody (my family member) does something stupid(abuses drugs) and the repurcussions fall on me and the actions I take determine the possibility of what may happen despite facts they "knew would happen before they did it'. Or not.
Nobody should be put in this position. They knew what they were getting into. I shouldn't have to be a bail out with my medication because the drugs they abused are fatal suddenly stopping.
Some of us DON'T ABUSE THEM I mean me. I know better. So do they they still do it. Withdrawal is really awful. They never learn their lesson. So im, despite how I was being abused the last weeks, and them lying in there talking about going to the hospital because of sudden withdrawal have to make a decision do I let them possibly die or hand them over some of my meds?!!
NOBODY SHOULD HAVE TO BEAR THIS BURDEN!!!!!!!!!! THEY DID IT TO THEMSELVES SIGH
They knew this. I absolutely hate this they are ever such a thorn in my side. Won't even apologize for what they did or said because "I don't when I call them names" is their words. Look I don't give or tell anybody anything they don't have coming. Im am a humble person who bothers nobody. They are a sh!t starter. A trouble maker harassing mouthy abuser especially when drunk. This time physically throwing things slamming doors yelling hitting pushing my mom's bed. Until they got what they wanted. Im supposed to just shrug all this off basically FML is their attitude. And my other family member.
I have no reason to apologize to them they deserved it all they are a mean sob drunk even sober sometimes. but I've stated why various times in my past posts.
But mess with me you'll get more than you bargained for. I wish I could leave and not come back. I don't deserve all this. Their actions are on them I shouldn't have to suffer double. In other words they are too cowardice to seek help. They're getting worse by the month. Mom's like what's the hospital gonna do for drug withdrawal.? I know Say you're drug seeking and dismiss you basically. Its true though.
He never should have made his problem mine. BUT THEY ARE. Trouble never ends in my family. I just wish I had a way out. Just because I get said medication don't mean I don't need it I take it daily. I don't abuse it or get drunk on it as he does. My life has been awful with his ever increasing well addiction, aggression, fighting etc. Its not like I can just walk away or I would without looking back. Nobody should have to live with what I have. In 2018 he physically assaulted me 3 times. I was intimidated not to call police he's a complete psychotic angry.
Its also driving mom crazy she this evening snapped at me taking her misery out on me . Again. Why can't a ufo beam me up? I know they exist. Life just give me a break please. Im tired of suffering.
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