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So yeah the days over but I still need to vent about it. I don't know how much I slept last night a couple to few hrs idk. Dad still entirely seem right mom said he was wondering why I went off on him. Moms like because of your b s you don't remember what you do to us.
So they get ready eat and go out shopping. Today's Easter Sunday btw. They were going to get our dog steps to get up onto moms bed but the store was closed which had them. I washed all the dishes before I could chill with the dog finally.
They come back. Over course dad bought a new boombox stereo and other stuff mom got a shepherds hook for a bird feeder. Mom got me to sabotage the previous one of his because he blared it up at 4 am months back drunk and we have a lot of surrounding neighbors.
I had to figure it out for him. I knew he was buttering me up for some reason. The obvious reason. I wasn't born yesterday. I listened to him blab awhile. About the past as usual. But when he got to the 'i got feelings too" about how my cousin did him I was like to myself what about everything you've said to me!?!
I effed up things by being born for example.
He don't never treat me good UNLESS HE WANTS SOMETHING. The obvious, my meds.
I dozed off after dinner. Mom wake's me up going he won't quit whining can you take him to see if he needs to poop. I do but then its like people are literally coming out of the woodwork the dog won't mind he growls barks pulls me , I of course meet mr stick up his ass Latino too who hates me without a cause as well (lots of Latinos here seem prejudice i don't understand why).
I get pretty well angry and am forced to go back in because people won't quit coming from seeming all directions ahhhhhhhhhh I was so mad. The dog won't poop of course of he's distracted he's bad to hold it in and just bark growl at others. I love the dog but he has his ways of being annoying.
Ok the last part I'm still pist about. He's trying to put his addiction back on me again. Actually before I took out doggo dad was trying to get me to give him a handful of my meds. Hes like Ive got an awful headache blah blah blah. While I'm not doubting it I know when I'm being played. I've had a headache too I still got one. He goes it helps it somewhat. Uuhhhhhhhhhhh THIS MEDICINE WHICH YOU ABUSE ISN'T FOR HEADACHES!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!??? Wants me to give him x amount. Makes all these promises to me. Even still I'm not going to do they so you can just pop them all. So now he's playing the victim acting pist off at me like somehow its my fault HE ATE 100 EFFIN PILLS IN A WEEK. what was all that b s about going to rehab earlier today? As I said before to mom and tonight, like I said before after his wild aggressive mean drunks who does he come running to? ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why me!? His addiction is not my fault problem or responsibility. Just because I get them I don't abuse them. I know better. He just doesn't care. No Dr wants to be responsible for him on them cuz he has a drug history I'm guessing. So they refuse him. He abused them when he got them legally before too. No difference in behavior. I guess mom thinks he's full of crap. She says that the local place quit helping drug addicts. He's like I may have to go a few towns over. Tbh idk what to believe. He had that medicine in his system anyway its not like he didn't have any today HE HAD MORE THAN I'VE HAD according to mom yet still begging me. I hate going through this every month. Its bullsh!t. I know how he acts drunk vs sober. He still isn't his normal self near sober.
I need a beach get away. This last 1.5 weeks has been so stressful. His drunk yelling cussing, mom yelling plus snapping going off on me. God help me.
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