Late night thoughts/feelings emotions

I dont know why I ALWAYS become the target in my family for unnecessary unneeded bullshit. No Im not playing the victim either its the fucking truth. I call people on their shit and shitty behavior they hump up and give the silent treatment as if their the victim, deny what they did, and like mom in her case ALWAYS defend the other person no matter what they do to me making here always right and me always wrong its bullshit. She'd defend a person who gave her a black eye and swiped her purse saying "oh they were just in hard spot in life they didn't mean to"...... Uh huh sure. And if a bird shit on her head she'd go "oh it just did what they do naturally so just ignore it". Or if someone stole our vehicle she'd go" well someone needed it more than we did". Crap like that. If dad busted her face she'd go " he just wasn't himself I'll be alright ignore him ignore it"

my point is she is

ALWAYS DEFENDING THE OTHER PERSON WHO IS AT FAULT AND INVALIDATING ME AND MY FEELING'S AND IT REALLY FUCKING PISSES ME OFF

today was awful. The dog even tried to bite me, I took him for a walk in the cold to poop, I fed him , he barked at me and tried to bite. I go "some days you just can't winwuth anything" (mom and dad double teamed me AGAIN today fml) and she goes "you can't get mad at a dog" I tell ger to f off because she invalidated me instead of saying we all have bad days. Then I silenced her because I spoke the truth again and said "ok if you can't get mad at a dog why are you always going all to hell on him at night when he won't settle down" because me she does. But oh its ok just to invalidate me instead right. Little miss kleptomaniac yes I won't go into details but yes she kinda is. Any way why can't you all just fucking show me a little bit of kindness instead of an ocean of drama and bullshit fighting bickering being a short fuse and dad being a motherfucking insensitive son of a bitch pricky drunk on drugs? I so hsre this shit so much I may just commit suicide. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE I CAN'T FUCKIN WIN

IM ONW OF THE KINDEST PEOPLE YOUD EVER MEET AND IM PUT ALL THIS BULLSHIT UNDESERVINGLY. I saw a woman bullied at a workplace they wouldn't give her a leave of absence for her mental health she was bullied to the point of suicide she jumped off the 18th story of a building rather than suffer anymore emotional suffering and misery. Its no wonder why the poor woman did it. Lack of kindness care love empathy. Im so sick of people being awful to me and im sure she was too. FML I give up. For now but I sure as he ain't gonna quit for a few toxic ass people like my mom n dad. People SERIOUSLY need to show more kindness. There's a shortage of kindness and love and a lonliness epidemic declared by the surgeon general. Im just so sick of shit treatment by people and family/relatives. If I commit suicide don't wonder why. I tried.

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