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I’m just tired of people leaving... did I do something wrong?? Did I say something that was offensive? Am I not pretty enough or smart enough. It’s true that I’m completely out of your League and their are other people better but I’m loyal... I would be with you and only you. I could listen to you for hours and never get bored. The reason why I didn’t say much the first three times is because I’m afraid of opening up. We grew up in completely different worlds and I respect and I know that’s not what I should be worrying about but I can’t help it. Did I change your mind on the fourth time? Was it better that I was more open with you or did I chase you away?
Usually I’m good at reading people but I can’t read you for the life of me. Your actions contradict your words and your priorities make your words obsolete. How, after I have known you for a month, have you became so important? This is not logical or realistic. This is life and not some preteen fairy tale, yet why am I still dreaming of you? Why do I still care? Is it because you are the first person I have actually wanted to kiss? Is it because that first kiss meant something to me? Of course I awkwardly got nervous right in the middle of going into a kiss and accidentally went for a hug before gaining the courage to lean back and join our lips but once I did, it was as if I have never kissed anyone else. And as dramatic and extra as that sounds, it’s just how I feel.
See on paper I am a completely different person. I can express myself in a way that I can’t in person. I’m introverted and I gather a lot of information. I guess you could say that I process things differently then most humans. It takes me awhile to get used to and or open up to people but I promise I can become cool once you know me.
You are a mystery to me, (Person). One minute I think I know what you want and what you are thinking but the next moment I have no clue. It’s obvious that you have trust issues. You aren’t necessarily afraid of opening up but rather you are afraid of letting someone in. You have the door wide open but as soon as someone comes through the doorway you chase them out.
I get that you are “in love” “ infatuated” with someone else and I know I’m being selfish but their is literally not a moment that goes by where I don’t think of you. You are on my mind 24/7. I’m constantly worried or wondering what you are doing. I’m constantly thinking about certain circumstances with you.
Do I even cross your mind? Do I even have a role to play in your life? If nothing else I at least want to be your friend but I’m afraid you won’t let me in.
If this was a fairy tale, this point in time in the story would be the part where something tragic happens that makes the love interest run after the main character.
Sometimes it’s a clock that makes a spell go away or a evil step mother that give you an apple but seeing as how this is real life, I sincerely doubt I’m going to be kidnapped by pirates and since this is real I want you to be with me because you want to and not just because it’s the thrill of the chase or because you wanted to get over your Ex.
With you though the chase was over before it even started. It was gone before the story begun yet why do I feel so unfulfilled? Why do I feel like there could have been more.
I respect you a lot for ending it the way you did because it was very mature but at the same time I wanted more time. Another chance. It wasn’t enough and I was far from done.
I hope you know this is far from who I am in real life. In real life I’m blunt and realistic. I might even seem cold to most but with you, all of that goes out the window. I’m not normal with you. You make me want to dream about my future and become a better person.
Why do you make me feel this way? Why does it have to be you of all people? You are 10 times more attractive, 100 times more intelligent and have 1000 times more character then I do.
You challenge me in a way nobody else has. You even made me see my own potential.
Or at lease you did.
Is this past tense now, (person)? Should I start another chapter without you?
Should I move on?
People always say that their will be other women to choose from or that there are “plenty of fish in the sea” but out of all the fish I have been with, you are the only fish that made me feel something. I want to be unrealistic and cheesy with you. I want to be dorky and play dungeons and dragons with you. I want to dance and sing off tune with you but it’s over.
That spark was blown out before we could see the firework.
And as much as I want to tell you all this I know I can’t.
Like you, I respect you too much.
If you want to remain an old chapter, then that is your choice...
If I had one wish right now it would be for you to be happy. Whether it be with your ex or some other pretty girl... I just wish you happiness and fulfillment in your life.
As much as I hoped that it would be me, at this point it’s just not likely...
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