Disconnected tree

My immediate family can be toxic and somewhat phony. Mom, sister and father. One is in the clouds, emotionally and mentally not capable of being motherly. In some sense yes, but majority of the time it comes across as something else. More or less it feels like we're a burden. The other has the worst bitchy attitude ever and holds grudges, can hardly get over herself and doesn't give a damn much. Father non-existing. Hate the fact everyone pretends they care. I end up being a punching bag and have me blamed for nearly everything,than being part of something. Treated indifferently and get negative criticism for alot. I take alot but some point it becomes unhealthy. Tough love is alright but to a certain extent until it serves no purpose but to put down. There's been turmoil caused from themselves and never helped the situation at times. Have been talked about negatively and made it seem like I'm a problematic person. Yet, i can admit,see my flaws and reflect on them. I'm actually my hardest critic. They can't own up to their own faults but complain. Should I be happy for a family that somewhat adds on the negative weight?

It's tough because it just adds to the resentment. All I know is, I need to get away from them soon and keep distance for awhile. They ruined part of my life enough and never made it easier. Hard enough as it is to be dragged down from the outside world but then go home to emptiness, stress and more negativity. It becomes difficult to find a little peace in yourself and around. I always tried my best to help out and I feel I'm taken for granted often. I'm not spoiled and ungrateful. Nor, do I have issues coping with my own current issues, I've been doing it on my own emotionally and mentally with little to no support. Dealing with the same issues gets annoying and you start to lose patience. I dont believe my surroundings do me any real good anymore. I have tried to reach out. I feel unhappy and I've begin to dislike being around anymore. The sad part is I've changed for the worst and blocked myself away. Part is my fault but also how I feel I can't express myself without being accused. I'm at my own limit. I'm not sorry for what I have to say for it. Its unlikely, that i am heard because when I have something to say, it's disregarded. Most cases I don't think it's honest and truthful with them. Anyways, I'll be out of the picture soon enough and live my life somewhat and hopefully a little less negative and stress-free. Away.

Who knows what's to happen or what's to become of it overall.

Maybe , have a family of my own instead and be happy.