Does he really love me?

Because of my life that is full of players, I am in doubt of every around me feelings towards me.

He calls first thing when he wakes up, he calls me before going to bed and we sleep together on the phone.

He calls me when he is busy at work and on his breaks.

He does everything to see me everyday and I actually do, he comes to see me even when it is 1 am.

I told him I want a relationship with no sex and he didn’t argue he just agreed.

Once we went out at 10 pm and went back home at 12 pm of the next day we literally spend more than half a day together.

He tells me all those sweet things and tells me he loves me often.

We’ve only been together for less than a month and we are already planning on travelling together and moving in together and going to college together.

In fact we are taking a trip tomorrow to a place I never been to in years.

He cares about me and takes care of me and is protective and jealous.

He rarely lets me take taxis he drives me to anywhere I want to go even when he is busy.

He calls me princess.

He kisses me a lot.

He hugs me everytime he sees me.

He wants me to quit cigarettes because he is protective of my health.

If I call him when he is asleep he wakes up to talk to me.

Yeah he seems like the perfect boyfriend and in fact HE IS! But I have been played on my whole life. But yeah nobody ever did all this effort for me.

I have anxiety and I can’t help but trust no one.

I can’t lie. I don’t even trust him, well not completely.

I don’t even trust my own mom! I was blackmailed by my ex before how could I trust again? And it was weeks ago.

What if he is doing all that to play me around and leave me?

What if it is all a lie?

What if he did this for all girls?

what if what if so many what ifs.

Do all boyfriends do this for the girl they love? Should I hold on to him? Does it seem like he is playing around? Is he someone special?

I don’t know I am too anxious of getting hurt again.