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Hello 25-year-old you!
How's it goin' girl! Look I know we've had our rough little ups and downs, and I know that sometimes life can grab you by the throat and shout "Do something sinful you useless piece of garbage! Why the hell not?" lol... but on a more serious note, everything is still gunu be okay and has hopefully CONTINUED to be okay.
I mean comin from 20-year-old me, it says alot that your likely still doin well. Cuz remember back in middle school, gettin bullied an picked on all the time? Remember that one time when some mean ol' bitch was fightin you? Man that led to some serious insecurities down the road..
You hear it all the time tho ya' know? That you're beautiful? You're pretty? You're kind, and caring? I mean I wanna believe I'm beautiful, I TRY to believe them. There's just so much past pain that I'm still subconsciously holding onto a little part of it, and I can't seem to let go.
But we're trying future me and you, we're trying. No one's out to get you or to hurt you anymore. There's no longer need to feel broken, no need to cut yourself, to drink smoke or have sex. No need to feel the bisexual confusion and jealousy that you may have towards some of them, and certainly no need to hate men.
It's a crazy world out there.. Remember when you tried to kill yourself? but after making the best decision of your life, meeting a girl the next year and having the BEST year after the worst one? Ya maybe it didn't work out and that still kills me to this day (wonder if it still bothers you too), but I'm grateful for it. Atleast we didn't miss the chance, it was a learning period! :D
Well anyway, I had to bring that suicide one up because... I still remember us saying "I fear a life passed high school. I fear the adult world and all the ongoing bullshit; college, an awful job, family and kids?"
I remember thinking no one loves me enough to make it to the 'having kids' phase. But turns out, I AM a good person, and I AM beautiful. You'll find someone, if you havn't already. I mean look at you! 25 and still going. Past us had no hope, but we showed her!
And yes present me still fears the adult world but who doesn't at this age? It's okay thats perfectly normal, quit trippin'. I hope you're a math teacher by now (something you actually love) but even just being alive and LIVING that life is happiness enough for me ^.^
You go girl! I'm proud of you (:
-SleepyBanana
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ReplyAaaaw thank you! ^=^
ReplyWow keep on writing they are awesome.
ReplyThank you so much. Thank you both! <3
ReplyYou should write more it is really good.
ReplyThanks again,
but hey arent u the one that said ur new to novni?
ReplyYes I did say I was new to Nonvi
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ReplyI'm cool to chat here if that's ok (: but I was just gunu say; tell you what, if you write a prompt and share how YOU feel, about ANYTHING, then yes I WILL write more! <3
And then I'll give you a credited name of your choosing at the end ^-^
ReplyI'm not real smart I don't know really how to write sorry, but do continue to write
ReplyOh you don't have to be smart to write. But okay if that's what you want, then I respect your choices๐
ReplyI love to write it's just I get made fun of alot on here.
ReplyOh stop it thats nonsense! I mean I know that I'D be kind and not make fun of you (:
Replythak you are swweeet
ReplyWell of course, no problem. This is one person that I guarantee you can trust. You are welcome.
ReplyGood piece of writing and there is so much good in the world if only you open your mind up to see it. Be the brightest silver lining of the darkest storm cloud. ~LonelyGirl x
ReplyThank u (:
ReplyWell... we are apparently 25 now ._. I'm still proud of you just, work on some things ok? Lol you're still doing great tho ๐๐ป
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