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She went to spend time with her family for a week. The last few days before she left was terrible for us with arguments , discussion on expectations and no conclusion. She was not ready to let go even when i know we were not happy being friends with each other and that it will become worse and worse. So I took a hard call and told her that since she can't fulfil my expectation (my only expectation) because of others/bf , and we will never b happy together bcoz I will always have have that expectations, i took the hard call and told her that it is over and we won't talk ever again even though we sit next to each other in office space. However, on the way back after this decision, I felt this insane amount of pain in my heart and thought that maybe I can take more of this pain. I can try to be stronger. So finally after reaching home, i messaged her that I will do as she wants. Next day she had to leave and somehow later she called me/messaged me and tried to be nicer to me. I pretended that I was not upset but I guess she figured out how upset I am. She kept on being nice to me for the next 2 days talking to me whenever possible. I was sick the next day and she was too nice to me. For a change I felt that she realised my worth/value and that i was important. But she had a feeling it was just temperary. The same night I messaged her that I needed to ask her about something she said (some sensitive remark), but she told me to wait till next day when she will call me up. That was 2 days back and I am still waiting. Even though I messaged her good morning every day she went to her family, and she messaged me back as well, but she still hasn't called me back.. I understand that people are busy but so busy that one can't call. But What ever importance I felt for 2 days now I feel that disappearing. That value given seems now like a temporary solution given by her to ease the hurt I faced last week and she is back to her. I feel like I don't know her anymore at all. I feel lonely without her and I miss her immensely but i can't tell her because she laughs at me whenever I have said that to her in the past and never replied back. I feel humiliated and unappreciated by such non response from her side. I know that it is a wrong feeling and that she doesn't have to miss me just because I miss her. But those words may make me feel on top of the moon, make me feel appreciated. I feel that she doesn't care anymore, that she never cared and that she only cared when she was guilty about something she did. We were happy 3-4 months back but I am not so sure now what to do, how to make our bond stronger and not hurt each other. I know it is my perspective and hers maybe different. Hell, I may even be wrong on what I am doing. But I know for sure that I really care about her and nothings gonna change that. However pain and hurt I am, I will still care for her. I hope she realises it before it is too late for us.
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Life has no guarantees. You cannot expect her to make you feel better and you have no right to force her.As every other animal humans want to be appreciated. It is just our nature.But don't tie your self to people or objects.
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