Thinking....

I thinked about my life while taking a nice relaxation shower today....and it gave me light on many questions i was thinking about. I discovered that people in my life are not supportive at all. I am studying something i didn't wanted just because my father was like ''You will study it and that's the final word'' I just hate him for this he ruined my life. My friends or better said my two friends my only friends in my life are in truth really weird they are like ''Oh let's make fun of him with everybody else and then pretend we are his friends'' So I discovered i really don't have friends. My Ex is still calling me, spamming my phone with messages i delete right away. I just want to have my own life but maybe you know that feeling when everyone is f!!!!!g into your life, into your goals, into your dreams I have only one nerves and i try to crush these awful people with my 24/7 optimism but it's really hard to hide your real feelings in front of this kind of people....It's seems to me they want to break my Psychics but they are not gonna accomplish that.... Just it's really alot of pressure on your mind that you want to go somewhere where you'll be alone forever but on the other side you want someone who you can trust but that kind of people are really hard to find