Life is a Roller Coaster

So it got worse, a lot worse than i ever imagined.....Iam all alone without any friends,without GF,without any support at all.....i guess it had to be like this life is cruel sometimes. Iam thankful for evry minute i live but iam feeling so lonely and sad every day that i think only about the worse think i could ever do and i know how much people i would make happy with it, sometimes i feel like i shouldn't be...i shouldn.t exist. I love to make new friends but when you get feeling that they could ''bend you over the barrel'' is more than sad, i only hope that right people will come into my life in some point.