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My father
5 years ago · 0
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So, I'm very very upset today. It wasn't even one thing that made me upset. It's just the accumulation of great many things that make me upset as a whole.
I love my mother more than I love my father. Don't get me wrong, I have a good father, he takes care of us, he feeds us and provides for us. The problem is the emotional turmoil. Sometimes, he's the nicest person in the whole world but sometimes he becomes a person that we all want to stay away from. He then starts to nitpick on little things that don't even matter that much. He's always going about food. In our household, food in time is an absolute necessity. He becomes really angry if breakfast, or lunxh or dinner gets late or if he doesn't get his tea. But that'd understandable. People do get mad when they're hungry. He gets hungry a lot toom he doesn't eat very much at one time, he eats frequently in a day but little. That'd a good habit, actually. I don't know why I mentioned it.
I am upset by the nitpicking, today I had to get a formal photo taken, I came home happily and showed him the photo. I shouldn't have. Should have just kept it to myself. He scolded me that it was not a good photo. He asked me why I was wearing a red head-scarf. He said the colour was too bright for a young girl. I had told him before going to take the picture that I was going for that purpose. And he had no problem before with the bright scarf. Suddenly, his mood had changed and that's what always happens.
So, I'm free nowadays, I gave an entrance exam into a medical university. I studied really hard for it. I thought I would give myself a reward. I asked if I could go to my friend's house (She was feeling really down as she had not gotten admission in her univeristy of choice and was now studying a science course that is often looked down here) He said I could go. But then when the time came, he refused to send me. And this always happens. I think maybe I go to a friend's house like once a year. And I have to choose one of my friends for that year. And yet he always says we ho out too much. Like really, the only reason we go out of the house is for education. Or visiting relatives once a month. And yet he always refuses on the basis that we go out too much. I didn't ask him again and I didn't show it. It's his choice after all and it'll do me no good to be stubborn.
Another thing is I always feel like no matter how much I achieve, there's always someone in my father's contact list who is better than me. And I am already feeling bad enough as it is that i didn't score perfect marks yet I am reminded always.
He also has a hate type thing for my little sisterm no matter what she does, he has a problem with it. The result being she has hust stopped talking with him, she doesn't get out of the room except for school.
Supposedly, I am my father's favorite but he never lets me have fun. Very rarely, if we have any plans to go out to the mall with our cousins, he always puts the condition that I would stay home....I can't even. But usually, my mom convinces him to let me go. His excuse is that since she is always studying, she should study today as well. I want to have fun too.
Another thing I don't like very much is intefering in other people's business. Like how othersare raising their kids is nobody's business.
This is just all recent stuff. Individually, I know, it's not much. I sound like a whiny little pampered girl, but it does stress my out even if I don't say anything to my father. The accumulation of little disturbances make me sad.
There are many more instances, I couldn't possibly write then all, this
was just a glimpse into the external not in depth problems.
Despite the rant here, I love my father, I just needed to vent my feeling out of being stuck in the house. My father has really good qualities too. But you know one bad quality makes all the good qaulities go to waste. Still, my father is kind-hearted and he provides help in any way he can to our relatives who need it may it be a small favour or a finacial problem.
Thanks.
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