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Hello. My name is unimportant. Last night I went in to my bathroom to take a shower and I sat on the edge of the tub to think . a roach ran out and flipped over on its back and couldnt get up it sat there ..along with me. I started at it thinking "should I help it flip back over , should I let it die? After all it is only a little roach ." but watching it fight to get back on its feet reminded me of somthing, myself. After a minute it quit fighting and just laid there... ready to die .I too ,am flipped over and can't get up. I seem to have hit a bump in the road but this bump feels more like the end to this road . I try so hard to get around the things I deal with and I try to flip back over like the roach,but after trying for so long to get back on my feet I'm still getting nowhere and I begin to see no reason to get back up and there is nobody sitting on the edge of the tub thinking of helping me. I'm laying here ,stuck with no help wondering if I deserve help anyway .now, laugh if you will.... Im comparing my life to a roaches but for some reason I see my self as well running around trying to aviod danger ....but its inevitable, danger and pain work together to find me either way and soon and I flip over and get stuck they catch up to torment me a little more . now let's forget about this little insect for a moment and focus on me .Ive searched for the help. ive tried to find love but the people who are willing to help you always want somthing in return and most times i dont have what they want and the people who say they love you rarely ever do and the ones who do disappear after awhile .so there you are again, stuck by yourself ,upside down with no help. But then after youve hit rock bottom , sombody temporarily comes and sits on the edge of the bathtub and thinks about helping you or stepping on you. I ended up helping my little friend up and taking him outside because maybe im hoping someday sombody will help me .I too am flipped over.
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I appreciated your share! I could relate. It definitely sounds like we are feeling lots of the same things! I know for me I needed to change my focus. Instead of seeking ultimate perfection, go easy on yourself. Attend social activities, school clubs, activity interests, meetups, community causes, and other things where you can meet and mingle with those who share your values and ideals. Just interact and meet new friends. Find those who share your interests. It's really meeting people, be it work, at your religious services, even with your favorite neighbor! I started attending local parks and recreation activities, even community festivals. There are people out there to share your love and affection. It's being a pal and partner. Also, know ultimately good relationships can come from healthy interactions. Take things safely and at an appropriate pace. Have fun!
Replythank you , ive been tols before to attend social activities but im an extremely unsocial guy and I don't think that it would work for me the way it works for others.
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