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Im17yr old. When I was in day care even before pre school i met a girl . this girl I met was so cool she loved doing all the things I loved to do . we ended up going to the same school and then had the same after school daycare . we were best friends, inseparable. But for my third grade year I moved away and then moved again for forth and fifth grade. In the middle of my 5th grade year I moved back to the town that she was in, I was just begining to like girls by this point .I was shy and didnt talk to her until 2 months after I seen her i finally worked up the courage to say "hi" qnd they she simply said hey back it started as little hellos in the hallway but we both remembered each other and both missed each other , one day I asked for her phone number on the playground and she gave me her home phone(what 5th grade has a phone) .that day after school I called her and we talked and talked for hours . we did this everyday until the last day of 5th grade that I asked her to be my girlfriend and she amazing me and said yes . we "dated" all summer and then all of my 6th grade year and the summer after .it all added up to be just a little over 2 years . but at the end of that summer ,I moved to a little country town and hour away and we tried dating "long Distance" but my dumbass told her I didnt think it would work . we lost contact with each other and I didnt talk to her until 9th grade and we got back in contact with one another and I took her to the fair(with my dad bc I couldnt drive alone yet) we had a blast we rode rides and learned who we were turning into and now im in 11th and we still talk. But before I go any further I want to say that I trust this girl with my life I trust her with every secret I have i can tell her anything and shes always there for me to the best of her ability. I think about her pretty often ,probably more than i should. now I live 6 hours away from her.but I have dreams about her all the time and only wish i could tell her that I want to be more than friends but deep inside i know i never will.I'm not sure im ready for that anyway .even though ive been with other girls ive always noticed I look for the connection that I had with her but I'll never find the same connection that I had with her in anybosy else which has only made me want her that much more but sometimes I wonder if I'm even ready for it even tho ive wanted her for as long as i can remember
ive cried so much over here , ive gone so long lookin for her in other girls knowing im not gonna find her there. I just wish i knew the right answer. I wish i knew how to act on this , I know i love her because i would do anything for her no matter what it was ,but idk if Im IN LOVE with her or even capable of being in love with her. And if ever I decide to tell her how i feel im scared it would ruin what little bit of a relationship we have....if only.....
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It sounds like the universe is pushing the two of you together over and over. There is a reason for that. Watch the world work. There is a reason you look for her in every girl. Either she is your "the one". Or she embodies everything but one thing you can't put your finger on... your catalyst.
ReplyShe has told me before several times that she believes that something in the universe is pushing us together she says all the time that she believes we are some how spiritually connect. These are her words but I feel like she wants me in her life but only as a friend and for a while thats all I was comfortable with was to be her friend . but now somthings missing. I think whats missing is her ...
ReplyHi. That's so sweet. :). whats wrong telling her what you really feel? or else it will be to late. if you want her to be in your life forever and see her smile everyday then you love her.
Somehow telling what your feeling to someone is really scary specially if it your friend but in the end you need to tell how you really care and love her. and if you got rejected just cheer up and smile :) Because whats important is you tell her. And it will all depend on her.
No regret and keep walking forward :)
ReplyThank you, this is quite helpful.
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