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i’ve stood here
a thousand times
stared at the
image of me with
the bulging gut
the arms too thin
the pale skin untouched
by the sun
i’ve laid motionless
and squeezed
at the fat that remains
though little
it still haunts me
reminds me i’m
nowhere near where i
want to be
who i want to be
no passion or skill
distract me from
vanity
from the feeling of
my mind writhing
i hear them and wonder
what am i seeing
what are they seeing
why can’t i see
what they are seeing
i stand again and
look at the image
changed but
unchanged in my mind
revolting and real
self love and self care
meaningless to someone
whose mind can’t
differentiate reality
from their toxic
thoughts
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Well I happen to think thickness is sexy. I'm big too. As long as you can get around I don't see where it's a problem. As long as you have a healthy heart 💓
ReplySome of the most beautiful women I know are bigger. My ex being one of them. She was hott af
ReplyI feel as though people answer these things..."wrong"? I can't change how you feel, at most I can relate, but at the end of the day, we just need to get the help we need. God, maybe you don't want it, and that too is fine, but after years I realized it's tango. Either I continue to pity myself meaning I can't rant to anyone because they don't deserve my pain or I get help, find a way to turn this toxicity into beauty. Time is of essence.
ReplyI’d like to hear more from you. Your poetry is a beautiful word-portrait of injury that identifies this thing. Should it be your only recourse for now, it absolutely should be somewhere. I’d like that to be in here.
ReplyI’ve definitely felt this before
ReplyAs one who is also inhabiting a distorted body, I can only say: I get you. Haven't found a solution, however, you are not alone!
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