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6 months ago · · Love,
I am tired of thinking about you constantly. I am tired of smelling the phantom scent of you or the moments in my head that replay when I pass by a certain place. You took all that from me. A beautiful day at the beach has turned into a scenic moment of us in the water as you grabbed me and held me to keep me warm even if all the water around us caused us to freeze. How the lookouts at night aren't just a beautiful sight to behold but the memory of us parked in my car talking about our future together. How driving without you in my passenger seat holding my hand or laying on my lap while laughing will never happen again. How my bed is now emptier and there isn't anyone to wake up to. How my alarms set for your work are now just a reminder of the many times I will get up and not see you or wake you up with a kiss on your cheek to eat breakfast. Anything I do, I am reminded of you. We talked about our world together but simply I was just not made to be in yours. I wanted you to be it for me and who knows,maybe you will. For now I have to let you go so I can listen to a song and not think the lyrics are being sang to me. So I can watch a cheesy movie and not remember all your cheesy pick up lines you used to lure me in. So I can watch the stars and not think about the time we drew pictures of them while sitting in your beat up Civic. I want to go back to life before you so I won't keep hurting trying to move on. You were the best and worst part of my story. You helped me forget the love that was lost but who knew i'd lose you to. Goodbye my love, for I am letting you go to come back to me. If you don't, I am glad for everything you showed me. You showed me how to love and for that I am always going to be grateful. I still pray for you and wish you stayed. I don't know what else I can do at this point but hope the best for you. Until later, I love you.