Am I living or am i just alive?

Everyday goes by and I have everything anyone would need in life. a good home, a good family, a good education, a person to count on. Then here I am still feeling alone and unmotivated in life. I takes me hours to find the motivation to start anything in life. I feel as if I am stupider than all those around me. I feel like I'm missing something. I want someone to sweep me off my feet with their love, compassion and care for me. Instead I feel like I'm just there to fill a void of loneliness. I feel belittled, and unwanted. I want to tell him this and to see my holes but It makes me feel too vulnerable just thinking about it. I want my dog back. She fills every void and doesn't judge and she loves with no regrets <3 I raised her and she fills my void, and its funny when she's a butt to everyone else. Things i need to do to fix this...... get money to vax and retag my dog and bring her back and find a way to care for here in college. Shes what keeps my world together literally.