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(I understand this is long, but if someone could read through this and help a girl out
I would appreciate) My family and I have a tough situation at home. As a little backstory, My father was abusive and my parents were always fighting. My mother would leave me at home with my brother (technically adopted cousin) to watch us, but he would abuse me and my sister, suspending me in the air and choking me on walls, forcing me to eat my throw up after I would panic, and slap us etc etc. So growing up I would have panic attacks where I would wheeze and shake. I was young and couldn't communicate how I was feeling so they assumed I had "breathing problems." There was a stock crash in 2008 that caused us to lose our house, my father wouldn't work so we lost the apartment we were living in after that, so we slept in the restaurant we just recently bought. Eventually my father would sleep in a hotel with his nephew and leave my mom, my sister and I to sleep in the restaurant. He would dissapear for a couple weeks at a time, then months, then finally never came back. I was in 6th grade. There's way more to the story but that's it in a nutshell. Ever since he left my mother has been scraping ever since, trying to run the restaurant he left us BY HERSELF. In between that time we were homeless twice because our house that we found got robbed repeatedly and it wasn't safe. Also, my brother came back to help my mom with the restaurant, just to leave her stranded 100,000+ dollars in debt due to numerous alcohol violations and not paying the employees. We had zero money, no home, and I was in my freshman year of high school. My mother was stressed, which I understand, yet she started to take her stress on us. She's controlling, never shows affection to me or my sister, never listens to me but forces me to listen to everything that's going on in our life (which I already know since she pretends I don't LIVE with her), never lets us leave the house, fought with all my friend's moms, has "beef" with every woman in Charlotte in our Eritrean community, is too prideful and shoved religion down my throat (I'm a strict catholic myself but she ties everything I do to sin), blames me and my sister for all her problems, calls us the devil, tells everyone she meets that I'm a bad child, yells at me in public places (IN SCHOOL IN FRONT OF EVERYONE), has a belief that everyone talks bad about her because of her actions, should I go on. I love my mom and I understand she's stressed, but now I see what my father was put through, which I noticed when I was younger but now I truly see it. She would lie about things that he did and would tell people to paint him out as a bad person as she does to us now. I understand why he left, but I shouldn't since he abandoned me and my sister. He also should have been able to control his anger and not hit my mom. But i noticed that he never hit me ever, and only hit my sister when she spoke about my mother, so the problem isn't us necessarily. Anyways we sold the restaurant, my mother isn't working and I'm the only one bringing money into the house. I only make 100 every two weeks, which is nothing, yet my mother complains that I don't do anything and doesn't appreciate. I worked with her at the restaurant, put my schoolwork last to help, put my emotions last for her. I give everything to her, never ask for anything. What more can I do. I'm not a bad kid, I don't party, don't drink, don't do drugs. I'm religious like she wants and the one thing I do is talk back sometimes but if someone is constantly yelling at you, lying in your name, shouting in public at you, etc its very hard to stay quiet. So I'm lost because I'm sitting here shaking because my grades aren't where it could be and it's not my fault because I'm intelligent, no computer access, my mom won't take me to school today and won't let me leave the house for some reason. I can't focus on school and I graduate next year, my sister graduates this year, and we feel guilty for leaving her in this situation to live our lives, but if she's unappreciative and toxic why should we put her first. But she is also our mother, and I will not be some disrespectful child who doesn't appreciate the one mother God gave her. She could be worse, I could have no mother at all. I should appreciate. Im sitting here crying and crying, so done with life, so over everything, about to have a panic attack because I NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL.
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You can still be a respectful daughter and still stand up for yourself. I'm sorry everyone is hurting. You need to tell someone about her keeping you from school though..that's not right and is just hurting you and your future. Use your resources and see if maybe you cant find something that could help everyone and make things so much better so when it is time for you guys to go off to college you wont have to worry about your mother because she's been getting help. Maybe also try talking to her maybe about how everything is going and if you don't feel safe then have someone that makes you feel safe be there with you. I wish you the best and remember you are strong and a wonderful child. Don't change or be something you're not to please others. Keep your head up kiddo.
ReplyI wish I live in the same place as you and offer you the help you need 🙁
But Girl, You are so strong for making it this far.
One day you will get over your problems Don't worry ❤
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