My Timed Entry

Theres this guy. He is handsome, talented, interesting... but this guy it doesn't matter what I'm doing but he just gets what I have to say. He listens when I talk, he doesn't ignore me. He genuinely is a nice guy. And he smiles. I love that he smiles. I just wish I could be the main cause of that. Sometimes we will make eye contact and he does this cute little smile and this adorable little wave and honestly it just makes me giddy with the happiness it brings me. But hes not mine and it's so so so wrong to feel this way. Idk why i feel this way. All he did was be nice to me. He literally is a dream of mine. Someone creative, beautiful, outdoorsy, and a little crazy. But we dont talk. He has messaged me but just to show me a song. But it was nothing I asked him to do. Just one day he messaged me saying "I'm pretty sure you caught me singing this at work" with a link to the song. Dear god.... that song. It was just beautiful. And I told him it was and he sent me more. They are all such beautiful songs. I made a playlist. It's my favorite one right now. Idk if maybe it's because I'm unhappy and I'm clinging to some idea of someone who is like minded with me. I dont really know him, but what I do know draws my attention to him. I feel myself automatically look towards him when he speaks. His voice is like honey to me when he speaks. So why, yet so sweet.