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[Poem] My history with the man
4 months ago · · sad, · Explicit
Alright. It’s time to take a minute to talk about these problems
Going through it all until I feel like maybe I’ve solved em
Yup, you guessed it. We’re diving right into his game
I mean, it can’t be that hard. We’re really one and the same.
We grew up together. Shit, we used to even be friends
We’d hype each other up, feelin like the fun would never end
Through the hardship and the challenge, we held on and we accomplished
Started imagining our future and all the good things we were promised
Then we started to grow up and things began to change
No words could ever describe it, so let’s just say that shit was strange
I had ideas and set my goals, determined to do good on them all
But then you started to doubt, and like a house of cards they started to fall
Fuck you doing man? What happened to us boostin each other?
Why you startin to act like I ain’t always been your brother?
At first you gave no response. Just silence and a sneer
But that’s when it all began. That was the beginning of my fear.
Suddenly I was never good enough and my dreams began to diminish
I started arguing with you. Crying and asking “dude, what the fuck is this?”
Since when did we start lookin in this mirror from different sides?
What happened to that place in the middle where our hearts lied?
Now every day is a battle and I’m getting sick of this fight
You keep telling me I should give it up. Shit…got me thinking maybe I might
Can’t have one good thing without you mocking all my pleasure
Tellin me I can’t have this one and that it’ll never get better
Now there’s this girl, and she’s stolen my heart like she a thief
She’s so flawless it got us both shocked. Can’t stop this feeling of disbelief
But you won’t let me have this, not with how perfect she seems.
Not when it feels like she could be the girl of my dreams.
Man, I miss the old days. Back when we both played for the same team.
I loved you like a brother. And if I’m being honest, I still fucking do.
I just pray to God there comes a day you decide you still love me too.