A New Addition

A year ago i got back in touch with an old girlfriend. For the sake of anonymity we will call her Amy. i suppose ill start from the day we met.

I was going camping with my closest childhood friend (we will call him Joe) and he wanted to introduce me to his semi-long term girlfriend. evening came and we were sat by the fire when i heard footsteps behind me, i turned around and the beauty i saw when my eyes met hers knocked me off balance, stumbling to regain my sturdiness i cleared my throat and before i could introduce myself my friend wrapped his arm round her and gave her a kiss, i realised this was the girl id waited so long to meet.

a few weeks go by from our first encounter and i find myself walking in the local town with my friend, Amy and her friend. I cant remember the conversation to the word but it ended up in a heated discussion between Amy and her boyfriend. I saw his fist clenching and veins popping, his face was going red and his fist was raising. before i had time to think i had him against a show window restraining him until he calmed and pulled her along home. after seeing what he was so comfortable doing to her that it was natural to do in public as well i couldn't let him carry on beating her.

Now what i did after, i am not proud of but im far from regretting it. I invited him to come camping in the same usual spot. only this time i was waiting. he crested the hill and my hands started to shake, my stomach dropped and focus came true. he came nearer i reached into my began pulling out a crow bar and lunged. i tackled to the ground pinning him with the crowbar and hitting him with the other hand. visions of him hitting her flashed over and over. this man was no man at all, someone i had known so long and trusted so whole heartedly was a monster. he broke free from my pin and ran to the edge of the hill. next thing i new my body threw the crowbar in his direction hitting the tree inches above from his head... that was the last i saw of him for a good while.

a year goes by and i have gotten very close with Amy things were going good, amazing in fact. early days watching the sunrise and late nights watching the stars come out. real soul mate sort of stuff.

then my old friend came back in the picture making her life tough and threatening to report what i had done to him. i had to much to lose so decided to leave. this was the biggest mistake of my life and i hadnt realised it yet.

three years pass...

i get a friend request from Amy i decide to visit her on my birthday as i was back in that part of the country. I knocked on her door, the door handle pulled and those eyes that had ownership of all my heart fell upon me once again. we spend the day in the fields laughing over old memories and catching up on new ones. we start dating and she tells me shes pregnant, i was scared but so happy at the same time.

I get a message one night

" Babe im so sorry..."-

-" I wasnt strong enough"-

-" he wouldnt stop"-

-"ive been raped..."

-" it was..."-

-"Joe"

In the following months i consoled her and tried to get her to make a police report. she couldn't open up about it to anyone because it hurt to much. i didnt want to push her because i feared it would make her feel worse.

a couple months go by and joe comes back on the scene amy and joe are talking civil. he tells her that he might be facing prison time because he was caught for armed robbery so he wanted to apologise for his actions and the way he treated her before he couldnt anymore. I make it obvious i dont like her talking to him because of the pain he put us both through but i wont control her she needs to make the decision on her won. she decides to stop talking to him and we enjoy the pregnancy.

were a month away from the due date and im showing my friends the scan photos they looked at the date of conception that are on all the scan photos and ask how long we had been together. i reply with the date we first hooked up and it was after the date on the photo...

they look at eachother and then at me their face drops they tell me to sit down and give me the news. the baby isnt mine.

i tell amy i have found out that the dates dont add up and i get a video trough from her mum having a conversation with the midwife and her mum says "Amy's partner doesnt think hes the father because the dates dont add up from when they hooked up. amy was having sex with joe alot at that time too so its quite possible that its his but is there any chance that the baby is her partners?" the midwife replies " there is a week leniency given on the dates so if it was within then then there is a chance"

it was not within a week of the date...

we end up breaking up because i was so heart broken that she was having sex with joe and hadnt told me there was a chance the baby wasnt mine.

i get a message through off of a girl who says she was joes girlfriend and he had just broke up her because she had fallen in love with another girl. it sparks my curiosity and i look through a phone i had leant amy before i could afford to but her a nice one. in the messages i find loads of then between joe and amy and many lengthy calls late at night...

now were at present day. amy has given birth to a beautiful daughter and i will never get to meet her after devoting my life to her and promising that bump that i would always be there to look out for her. Im struggling to cope with how my life has been destroyed by people i cared so much about.

to that baby girl, you dont know who i am and i doubt ill ever get the pleasure of seeing you face to face but know that there will always be someone to protect you from the dark side of this world.